It was a good summer, much better than the one before. I’ve won some, lost some, but it’s all good, I have not lost what I need, I’ve only lost what I couldn’t bear to have around me anymore. That say: ‘good friends we had, good friends we’ve lost” does not apply in my case. I have no good friends, people around me do not appreciate honesty or character. If you like to be lied you must have their address. I do not regret them, I feel relieved. It’s like I have more air around me.

Let’s take the beginning of the summer… June… Well, June was June. I worked a little, had fun a little, discover once again that some couples stay together just cause of the fear of being lonely. At the end of the month I found a job, that my instinct told me it was never gonna be a steady one. And that was June… Not really. One of my 5 years friendship was about to end.

July comes. I start my brand new job. All good until I have to quit. It seems that my instinct was right again. Last time I checked anybody was free to do whatever was in his/her power to have the life that he desires. So how can anybody try to make me think that only with a unnecessary sacrifice I’ll get to achieve my gold in life. I must check from now on, before every interview, if I have written on my forehead: Dumb ASS – Mock ME! And if that was not enough, that 5 years friendship ended. The guy, cause there was men stupidity month, hit on me with the pretext that if we do not have sex our friendship will end. What he didn’t know was that it was ended in the minute he said that to me. From the chapter: “How fucking stupid can you be?”

August comes in the end. I quit my shitty job.  One of my girlfriend makes me take a ”holiday” trip with her in Greece. Broke, furious and naive I accept. All good until I start seeing signs that this trip is gonna be a hell trip with her. And guess what, we go back to the . She was not at all sincere with me, show me that not only she doesn’t respect me, she showed absolutely no self-respect either. It’s so sad for a young girl not to realise that friendships in this days are rare and hard to keep. And the sadly thing is that she just didn’t want to admit her mistakes and the fact that the ocean is full of fishes and she has a life time to find the blue one. From the chapter: “How stupid women are when it comes to men matters”.

August ends with another one of my bright friends. She left home (a thing that was suppose to be done a long time ago), she had another fight with her mother and left, supposedly at my place. Long story short: she lied her mother and me and got me in trouble and fucking pissed. Another case of respect values and sincerity issues. And so I got to the grand idea that I am really incapable of having friends of any kind. I can’t stand their lies and lack of respect. And that goes for anyone around me. That goes also for another “smart” friend of mine. For 10 years I know her, and for 10 years she stayed the same (it’s not a good thing). I kept trying to make her see the fact that she’s ruined her life and that is time to have a reality check, but once again I”ve lost my breathe on someone not worth it.

To all the “friends” I’ve lost: It was about time to get you out of my existence and I wish you well far away from me in the horizon. Even If I get all alone with no friends whatsoever, I prefer that over being surrounded by imbeciles that love to fuck up their lives even when you show them the right way.

But there was a good summer after all. With good or bad, I’ve extracted my lessons and now I move on. Greece was fabulous, men there where… hmm… good. Sun was high, pool was cold. Greece open my eyes. I can do whatever anywhere in the world. And enjoy it.

And that was my summer. Better than last year. And in case you wonder, except of the fact that I didn’t won The Lotto this year (I should’ve played), everything is good, I still love my life the way it is.

Peace